Thursday, April 05, 2007
Live Forums are So Much Fun!
The question this leads me to is why can’t we engender that same kind of loving feeling in the mass community? It isn’t impossible, it’s obvious it can be done and is being done, so what is it that’s lacking. The most obvious ingredient that’s missing in a mass community is that unifying factor of ‘us against the world’ or ‘1 for all and all for 1’, ‘we are in the same boat, so if I help you, you can help me too’…..the smaller the group, the easier to fan the flames and keep them burning bright because there is usually a stronger feeling of loyalty and less chances for escape from responsibility.
The only thing is that citizens of the world do not see themselves as belonging to the same club, hence no unifying factor. Some out there think, well, if others are already lobbying to reduce reckless use of exhaustible fuel sources, I’m not needed, or worst still, the hands-off ‘too many cooks spoil the soup’ anyway argument.
Not sure why I am lamenting the fate of the world when I would like to see the citizens of Malaysia get together a bit more – no more spitting publicly, no more rolling down your car window and dumping used tissue, no more non-flushing of public toilets and stealing anything removable that’s in a public place! How does the government educate its people? How can it be done? Civic Consciousness is a phrase that is overused in Moral Education but rarely practised, of course neither is Common Sense usually. I refuse to believe that there are people out there who do not flush their toilets at home….so why do you change your standards, practices when you are out in the public eye? If anything, I thought one would behave better!
It is not my job to change the world, I do not assume I can change the world (granted, I am not THAT proactive as well) but I would like to make an impact on the people surrounding me. I would like to make them see that littering is bad (you know who you are) and jumping queues is wrong and shoplifting is criminal! If I can change the few people close to me and they can change the few people close to them, my work is done. Break it down into small manageable pieces, then you’ll see the work to ‘Change The World’ is so impossible after all!
I like to say to myself, whenever the urge to take the easy (but wrong) path is: ‘If you do this now and you know it is wrong, it WILL come back and bite you in the butt some way or another, some day or another’. And that keeps me on the straight and narrow!
Wednesday, April 04, 2007
When's there's nothing else, there's always Writing...
Currently, I am obligated to print and print reams and reams worth of my work. Nobody here at my workplace reads off the monitor and nobody amends and critiques off the computer. Here’s the process flow:
1. You do the work
2. You print the work
3. Boss reads the work and amends
4. You make the changes (do the work)
5. You print the work
6. Boss reads the work and amends/finalises.
(This is by no means a criticism of my work mates, merely a lament at the way time and resources are not as efficiently managed as they could be)
The last time I have had to undergo this vigorous never ending cycle was when I worked at The Garage, Penang where my boss wasn’t always boss and didn’t carry a laptop that we could send him documents on. When he came into the office, he would, more often than not, be happy enough to sit at the desktop and read through the work, then change it as he likes it (which happens more often than not because he was a man of his own mind and his mind didn’t always concur with mine). Even then, my colleagues and I were very conscious of the fact that the company was a new start-up and the boss was already spending millions on the building. Hence we penny-pinched all the way – gosh, we cut up the card board that came with your stockings/panty-house and used them as filofax cards to write our clients’ contact details on! (Btw, on a little detour – you can’t buy loyalty, pride and ownership like that in employees anymore)
Then of course I went on to a more corporate, proper, professional career in a consulting MNC. We printed what we had to, we did always endeavour to stay within the budget, even though the personal phone call bills could run up high, especially when you’re calling Penang during peak office hours from KL…….I MUST stress I wasn’t the only Penangite on the team! The work came and went but I was quite quite happy there. Until 2 years later when I joined the foreign bank of yore that I left to join this local bank of present. Many wonder a thunderous ‘WHY???’ but heck I had a good feeling about it and I wanted more banking experience – which I didn’t feel I was building up in my ex bank (actually a global service centre subsidiary of the actual bank). Which brings me here, at this point in my life, feeling frustrated and sad that I am not doing my part in saving the trees!
I have always been a frugal person (except when it comes to shoes and diamonds and items that I really love and must have (usually high-ticket, go figure – I don’t choose them, they call out to me)) (I seem to always look up from a rack of clothes and see ‘ New Arrival, No Discount’ or ‘Normal Price Merchandise’ when all around me, I am mocked and inundated with signs of ‘50% Off’, ‘70% Off’ and ‘Buy 1, Free 5’’!!! But I digress – I have always been careful with resources that are not limitless – paper, money, dogs…..
And in my ex-bank, this attitude was amply satisfied and rewarded. We were very cost-conscious and printed double sided, recycled non-sensitive papers, printed 4 or 6 slides to one page…..Now coming here, nothing is recycled but printed again and again and they use good quality paper!!!!! I am SO SAD! I have just been on the intranet looking for avenues where I can suggest a recycling campaign but can’t find the proper avenue. I guess I have to find another way.
I guess all big bosses don’t really think about saving cost, they’ve got more important decisions to make while lil’ole me is too busy focusing on the little things to change the world.
Thursday, March 29, 2007
OH NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Damn, I think I'd better go send some important documents and presentations to my external email. Not sure how the back up works here.
And the stupid thing is I keep trying to uninstall the screensaver and I can't seem to get rid of it!!!!!!
Btw, read why energy-saving bulbs are kinda bad here....
Friday, February 23, 2007
I have no idea what to call this post!
Go figure!
So I had 1 week of fun-filled Chinese New Year in Penang with good food and family and friends. It was not as hot as normal and even the traffic jams were not as bad – this harkens back to the old days of Penang as I remember from when I was 8 years old. Near my alma mater, Convent Green Lane, there was a large monsoon drain between the school field and the main road; and around the monsoon drain, there grew these giant trees. They would drop their pretty yellow and red flowers down on us and we used to make little crowns and bracelets with the blooms while waiting for our school bus.
We would also dare each other to cross the monsoon drain by walking over the slim bars of concrete, placed across the drain for heaven knows what. That was quite dangerous, that, since the drain was deep and wide but then we were fool-hardy, fun-loving children who thought we were invincible – well, no actually, I was quite afraid of feeling pain! This is quite weird seeing as I am morbidly fascinated by road kill and gore and violence but the imagined pain of any suffering affects me deeply. I think it’s because I can visualize and internalize the (assumption of) pain, therefore, I can feel my hair curl. The worst thing I have ever seen must be via ‘Faces of Death’ or ‘Shocking Asia’ or some video of that ilk, where a young African boy is caught shoplifting. He gets stretched out with a man each holding his hands and feet and another comes along with a small, yet wicked looking, knife. He proceeds to slowly saw off the boy’s right hand as a deterring punishment and a warning to others. The boy shows not a glimmer of pain nor utters a moan of despair. However, the silent look of hopelessness in his eyes speaks volumes. Such is the life of the hard core poor where they expect and accept whatever punishment society inflicts on them because they think they deserve no better.
Another horrid incident I have watched on the same video is where a physically challenged man is trying to cross a rather wide city road. He hobbles across as fast as he can when there is a lull in traffic. You see him, halfway across, holding up 1 hand as a gesture to ask the oncoming vehicle to slow down. No sirree, the big bus does nothing of that sort and proceeds only to slam on his screeching brakes AFTER you hear and SEE the thump of the poor man against the front grille of the behemoth.
These two scenarios never fail to leave a bitter taste in my mouth as they demonstrate the (possible) cruelty of the human kind and the utter bleakness you can fall to in life.
As such, appreciate your life – good or bad, there is always someone worse off than you out there. If you think about the tragedy of millions dying of AIDS, the unreasonable deaths of babies and children due to starvation and poor hygiene, and the unimaginable horror of (the raison d'ĂȘtre and method of) ethnic cleansing; just a few of the heartrending milieu that has visited Earth and Man; who cares if your daddy didn’t give you more money to buy those Aldo shoes, or you don’t get to buy that Roadster you had your heart set on!
This New Year I am making a promise to myself to be happy with my life because it’s all UP TO ME! If I give myself lemons, I’m making lemonade with a cheerful umbrella and funky straw. Buddhism says that there should be no ‘I’! It’s true, I have to learn to stop thinking of me and my pride and more of how I can make it better for someone else!
I’m growing up!
So for all my friends out there, I am thinking how to make the wedding more fun for you! I shall give everyone duties where I can be sure they will excel in so they can make the more efficient, effective use of their god-given talents and hard-won expertise!
:)
Wednesday, February 07, 2007
I’ve been a real bad girl this year and not bought any new clothes to celebrate what is only going to be the ‘Best Year of My Life Yet’! I mean I have some dresses I bought before and have not worn, god knows, if we’re going down that path, there are a lot of new clothes I can just throw on on the first day! But I must, I don’t have any new shoes! I’ve been feeling a bit guilty about buying shoes this last year. I told myself no more shoes because I’ve got too many already but I did go to Taiwan and China last year so……couldn’t leave them countries without a few of them on my belt.
So, why is 2007 the ‘Best Year of My Life Yet’??? Well, the time of the Dragon has finally come around, after 2 years of down time, it’s about time I started being on the UP again and it certainly reads like a fantastic year for us dragons if you believe the websites and Lillian and Joey Yap and all that.
The eerie thing is that the moment the new year rolled around, I felt happy. I didn’t go out and get drunk and kiss 10 random guys…..and girls!!!….but I had a major shift in emotions and I didn’t even realize it until a few days later, when I thought, Gosh! I haven’t felt this consistently happy for a long time now! So there you are, the planets and stars moving around does make a difference! :)
So, it’s felt like a wonderful start to the new year and I can’t wait to get things moving and shaking. I am going to do crazy things this year and I’m definitely excited about all the life changing NEW things!
(No it’s not another tattoo! Oh yeah, for those of you who didn’t know what my life changing action was mid last year – I got a palm sized tattoo – of a BEAUTIFUL peacock on my back. It’s got a bit of colour, some pink and some purple and it looks so elegant. The part I love most is its tail. It’s gorgeously intricate and it makes me take my hat off to my tattoo artist ‘Ah Sui’ (Water) from Sungei Wang. He’s excellent! After we finished the tattoo in 1.5 hours, he told me, “Well, now only your special someone will see the best part of the peacock…..and me of course!” Hhahahahahaa…..funny man! And no, it didn’t hurt!)
A note of caution for the new year though, it’s festive season soon so be careful when you drive. The cops are out and hungry so caveat emptor (me taking poetic license that). I was stopped for ‘speeding’ along Sri Hartamas on Sunday. The man who had sworn to protect me and country asked me, “Nak saman kah nak saya tolong?” (Want a summons or want my help?). Not the first time I’ve been shocked and most certainly not the last I’m sure. Disclaimer: Not all of them are bad or corrupt or flirty, just the ones I’ve encountered who are like that!
….And you thought it was going to be another boring self preservation drive safe campaign from me! Of course not, you yourself know whether you wanna live a long healthy life in one piece or not. Now THAT is not for me to comment on!
Happy Chinese New Year!!!!
Monday, January 01, 2007
For She's a Jolly Good Fellowwwww....
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!
It’s the year of the Fire Pig and apparently very good for the Fire Dragon – in case anybody is wondering – that would be moi! And my friends – Lisa, Thinki, Melin and Szup.
I can’t wait for the Chinese New Year to start and that should be Feb 18 2007! I must say looking back on the year of the Dog, the very antithesis of the Dragon, it wasn’t a very bad year – sure it wasn’t as smooth sailing as it could have been, it wasn’t as dry-eyed as it could have been and I sure as hell wasn’t as happy as I could have been, should have been, would have been but all that is in the past and I am extremely gung ho about the new year.
New Year = New Life!
I finally feel like I have exorcised some demons and I can’t believe it’s taken me so long. I have only just read Amber Chia’s revelation of August 2006 in The Star Online, that she had broken up with her boyfriend of 9 years and that took her 5 weeks to get over and 6 months to announce. I cannot believe it takes one 5 measly weeks to realize there is life after the demise of a 9 year relationship. I am not, repeat not!, bashing Amber. It’s just that my experience with it was tremendously different and I can only wish I woke up 5 weeks after my break up to think, hey man, I’m ready for a new man, a new love, there is life after all! I don’t think I felt that after 5 MONTHS!
Anyway, to each her own. She’s probably stronger, emotionally, than me.
I have learnt lots last year, it was a great year at work – I became a wonderful people manager which again is a vast improvement from 2006; but I have an extra special feeling about 2007. I really do! I think its time I caught up with life again – after having wasted more than a year of precious days not really being all that I could be. As my sis says – When you walk through hell, you’ll be stronger. I love that – I think I will print it out and frame it up.
The frequency, or should I say infrequency (if there is such a word), of my blogs, demonstrates my crazy work schedules and lazy weekends. It’s been madness at work. I have met some new people (and yes, by that I mean men) this year, who have all been nice but somehow we have not clicked. Do I not know what I am looking for or Do I know TOO WELL what I am looking for? Anyway, I wasn’t in the right frame of mind for a new relationship, heck even for men! But now, …….I’m thinking it could be nice to meet somebody worthwhile again…..I know! I’m blushing!
A big fat shout out to all the people who have made a difference in my life this past year – without some of you, life and work would have been duller and less meaningful. Tibet was crazy, China was fun, my diamonds and sapphires are beautiful, Taiwan was great for shoes AGAIN!, gorgeous hairstyle, fabulous friends, tempting food, striking eyes, tight and toned body and a few more experiences I can’t really talk about on the blog
Get a move on – time’s a running!
P.S. Auntie Irene, I have not checked my email in 3 months – yes I am THAT busy!, but HAPPY NEW YEAR to you and Uncle Ram and the family.
P.S.S. I have just gone back to read some of my old blogs. Apologies for all the mis-spellings, I sometimes type too fast for my own good and am too lazy or too out of time to re-read and correct.
Tuesday, October 31, 2006
Friends are Da Bomb!
So I went to How To Get To Kuala Lumpur International Airport (KLIA) which sounds so simple and accurate. I get very happy when I find out that I can take a bus from Hentian Duta to KLIA and back (return journey) for only RM34!!!! I am ecstatic seeing as I will be paying NTD1000 for 1 airport transfer in Taiwan.
But smart Errolyn thought, hmmm, I wonder if they still do this – so smart Errolyn decides to call the numbers that are so efficiently displayed in the page. I call Hentian Duta Head Office TWICE and the nice woman on the other end told me “Nombor ini tidak dalam perkhidmatan. The number you have called is not in service.” Well duh!!!!! Of course it’s not in service, it’s only the listed number for the Hentian Duta Head Office! What could I have been expecting??
So, one down, another one to go – Errolyn calls the KLIA Bus Branch and this time a genuine woman answered and told me they have stopped the Hentian Duta bus service and the only way I could get to KLIA was to take the KLIA Express from KL Sentral.
The website above seems to be a non-governmental website which offers travel packages and information about Malaysia as a premier tourist destination for 2007. It’s endorsed by Tourism Malaysia.
I love my country, and I want my country and fellow countrymen in the service industry to improve. If you have a website that proclaims to offer information and services, please ensure that updated information and services are available! The next step is for Tourism Malaysia to add to their To Do List to check the sites that they do indeed endorse, because there is nothing as embarrassing as having old or worse! wrong information being touted by irresponsible service providers who then emblazon a giant sign that says ‘Endorsed by Tourism Malaysia’.
Lessons learnt : (you know you’ve been a ‘Corporate’ too long when you use phrases like ‘Lessons Learnt’ without falling over and laughing)
*Never trust everything you read until you check it out
*You can get to KLIA via KLIA Express (37 mins), KLIA Transit (much longer cos the train’s like the metro/subway/underground/LRT/MRT that stops everywhere), family/friend, normal taxi (which probably costs a bomb), KLIA Limo (very reliable, seems to be honest unscary men)
*You need to spend a lot of money to get to KLIA
*When you have friends like Liz - who'll give you a lift to the airport, it's great!
Thursday, October 19, 2006
Just Once in a Lifetime.....Just Once!
It’s ironic that in my daily life, I plan almost every detail down to the T (now, that’s an exaggeration, the important details are planned down to the T) but it’s a wonder I cannot plan great holiday trip. And I mean great as in long time, covering wide expanses and many logistical nightmares kinda trip.
If not for Lisa, I wouldn’t have gone and driven around New Zealand and wouldn’t have gone on this China and Tibet trip too. Ok, I know Tibet is China but I say China-Tibet trip cos I went to ChengDu, China and Tibet, China so I have to remember it as such!
I was in charge of booking my own air ticket to China and already was getting all frustrated and stressed out when I realized that my CHEAP Thai Airways booking had 2 wait-listed legs of the 4 leg journey!!!! Nobody told me that! – I blame the girl entirely! Where is Customer Service when you expect it? And where you expect it!
Anyway, got on MAS and I wonder about their winning all sorts of awards – hmmmmmm…..something dodgy going on there. I have no compliments for them at all! From their hotline to their actual service on the plane – the pilots were good though! ;) But their postcard designs have not changed in 10 years!
So, anyway, I went to ChengDu (Sichuan Province – right smack in the middle of China) and met my friend who is working there, stayed for 3 days, visited:
1. Giant Buddha at Leshan (If you don’t know what I am talking about, watch the Cantonese movie starring Aaron Kwok and Cheng E-Kin Storm and Wind….or *(&^$*^&)
This was a couple of hours out of ChengDu and I went with 2 other friends, a wonderful funny girl and a cute arrogant guy. The Buddha was fantastic (you’ll be hearing a lot about Buddhism!!!!) and we just walked and walked and walked. There were Cave Tombs there as well. It’s like a park you have to pay an entrance fee for with temples and tombs and traditional fishing village and of course the Buddha.
2. Mt Emei which was an hour away from Leshan. We got there too late to go up the mountain which, if there are clouds and all that, looks like a slice of heaven. We got there by 5 or 6pm and the cable car up was closed already. I never went back cos am thinking if I take my parents to China in the future, the tours always include Mt Emei anyway so……
3. Dujianyan Irrigation System is an ancient system built by the Emperor of China, showing great understanding, skill and manipulation of nature. In summer, when water levels are different and flow differently, the are certain checks and balances to irrigate farming fields and in winter, to prevent flooding!!!!!!! Expensive though – 90yuan (RM45) to get in but it is huge.
4. Panda Breeding Base – very nice! This is the one near to ChengDu, not the far away one. But you don’t get to touch or take pics WITH the pandas.
Lesson Learnt: In China, bring your student card – gets you in to places at half price!
Then after 3 days in ChengDu, it was off to Tibet. Together with my friend’s friends from the Philippines, all 8 of us flew off to Lhasa. Loved meeting everyone – Ron, Alex, Chrisma, Sharon and Mary Anne!
Tibet is a lot of green, brown, mountains, winding roads, high holy lakes, low holy lakes (although in actual fact there are only 3 Holy Lakes in Tibet), monasteries with monks (from the Red and Yellow Sect), small and large prayer wheels, accessories, tangkas (holy paintings) and ummmmm….., smelly, doorless toilets.
The toilets are slits in the ground which you squat over with no flush system and the complimentary maggots. I, of course, was not looking down for maggots otherwise I would not have gone to the bathroom at all in Tibet, except for the hotels, but my friend was ‘kind’ enough to tell me about them.
I was shocked the first time I saw the doorless toilets. I thought vandals had been in but apparently, you just get down to business, so to speak! Hahahahaha, after some time, it was a breeze. But always remember to bring SCENTED TISSUES with you to China!
Why? Cos in China, people do not flush tissue away and do not throw used ‘anything’s away out of sight. They have an open waste paper basket next to the squatee toilet, and EVERYTHING goes into it. Used, unused, yellow, white, red, brown, EVERYTHING! Use your imagination.
Highlights of Tibet:
1. Sky burials
2. Food (I didn’t like the yak butter milk though)
3. Giant gold stupas
4. Tangka
5. Lakes
6. Weather (16-18 degrees)
7. Natural toilets (just throw caution to the wind, squat behind a rock or a
bush and DO IT!!!!!, careful of the prickly bushes on your behind though!!!!)
8. Private praying session to the Sakyamuni Buddha in a chained up no access area
9. Lake Yamdrok
10. Lake Namcho
Lowlights of Tibet
1. LONG bus rides
2. Giant Cypress Tree in Lingzhi – the ONLY thing in Lingzhi
3. Altitude sickness (which some people, BESIDES me, had – needed oxygen!)
4. Spitting
5. People who have no sense of personal space or manners when roughly pushing you aside
6. Too much of the same thing/scene
7. Lack of coffee. But there is this really cute Summit Café in Lhasa near
where Dunya is that is very Starbucks like. Good to go for some java and mat
salleh friends, and books to exchange (bring 2 for 1)
8. Dunya Restaurant – TERRIBLE management and RUDE Owner. My friend was VERY upset but yes, the servers
speak English. I don't know how much of a Tibetan experience it was - having red wine with your yak burger.....hmmmmm.....
So, after Tibet, I went back to ChengDu for 1 week and had a great time at the ChengDu Wildlife World (safari), EATING (baby lobsters are great – I had to go back for a repeat), Xinjian Mutton Kebabs!
I went too, to Tesco, to buy milk and some ham and bread and snacks for breakfast.
Then there is the great experience of Rang Fang Jie and He Hua Je!!!!!!!!! Ah! Shopping paradise! Clothes, shoes, accessories, household stuff, decorative stuff, baskets, paintings – anything you want, you can find it there for less than RM20! I bought 5 rings, some bracelets and earrings and necklaces. I bought 2 beaded beautiful lamps for RM70 each. The 2 are a must visit – unless you only have time (and by that I mean a minimum of 1 day), then go to He Hua Je. They open at 5am until 4pm.
I had my friend’s driver so it was very easy – just tell him where to go and when to come back and get you.
By the way, if you don’t speak Mandarin, it’s going to be a TAD difficult. I can’t speak it but I can bargain in it so I was pretty ok.
By the way, bargaining in China and Tibet – like Petaling Street but up it a notch or two. And walk away if they don’t give you the price you want – but walk slowly and keep your ears open for them to call you back. If several shops don’t call you back to give you the price you want, you know you’ve got to up it a little!
Have FUN!
P.S. Caught LiT performers in an Accapella show the other night – ‘FANG’TASTIC! Everybody should go – they are very good singers with a bucketload of showmanship!
Sunday, August 27, 2006
So many things, so little time....
I wanted to write about The Power of Love.....of Religion. I've seen a couple of friends fall by the wayside and even had one tell me (from the horse's mouth) that why she faltered when hard times came along is because she didn't have religion while I did (She had asked me how I got over my personal 'tragedy'). Now you know I am the last one to preach but I think it's true. I know that whatever decisions I have made and all actions I have taken have mostly at some point or another come from my faith in my religion. When I faltered, when I regretted, when I cried, when I was broken, I just went back to my religion and draw strength from that. I do not know if it is 200 percent right or true but everyone needs something to hold on to. And god knows, I have been broken lots this past year. Why? Because I have a naive, idealistic view of people I love - that they can do no wrong, or that they would never hurt others knowingly, that they would put others first before themselves but it's not (always) true.
However, I WILL NOT let that change my beliefs or my principles. I will still continue to be strong, to put others I love first before myself simply because I cannot hope to do otherwise. Even if I wanted to, I couldn't. I guess that's the difference - I couldn't even if I wanted to - naivete to the highest extreme but what the heck, it's me!
I have a simplistic view of people in my life - those that are important to me and those who aren't. Those who are, I cannot turn my back on them no matter the expense to myself, those who aren't, ....I don't really think about. Maybe it's because I do not expend much time and effort on those who aren't important to me that I have the luxury of always thinking of those who do.
So, it's actually a nice chemistry and combination of religion and personal ideals (do no evil, be good, have a good heart, do unto others what you would have others do unto you - can I say the same thing in more different ways???), that brings me to myself. A self I have discovered at 30! I have been told I have a soft heart and a tough exterior. Is that true? For you to find out.
(For those of you who are thinking, I am not writing very well or cohesively tonight - yes, it's because I'm tired, apologies)
Another thing I wanted to talk about is Local TV. Number one - the variety and multitude of bland reality shows available. Somebody ought to stop all these singing competitions. I had a terrible time with Malaysian Idol 2 and now with One in A Million (of which I think either Dayang should win or one of the boys - only happened to catch one episode) and Protege and Mentor and Akademi Fantasia and Digiteen and Celcomteen and all that crap. Come on man, although I must say the talent levels of Protege and AF are better than Malaysian Idol or OIAMillion. But nobody does anything differently. They're all the same, there is no ooomph, no style, no wow factor - though at least Protege and Mentor and AF teach the kids, the whole works so they understand what it is to be a performer instead of just walking out on stage and singing.
Heck, if Amazing Race can get boring, then you better believe it that these singing thingies have a much earlier expiry date!!!!
Gol and Gincu is quite cool though - the other day I watched this episode where Putri said 'I can trust Eddy, he will never hurt me' and actually blurted out laughing! Of course I had the omnipresence of a tv watcher but girls say these inane things all the time, I've been guilty of it, but now I know better! And then at the end of the episode......she goes 'How could I have been so stupid??!!!' Join the club girl! I've been there too!
This reminds me of an old Chinese saying, 'You can never say a man is good or bad until the four nails in his coffin have been nailed down'. Lord, is that true or what??!! See, there is wisdom in old wives' tales.
At lunch the other day too, a friend told me, never trust a man completely, never have expectations that are too high of him. Is that true? I'm sure it is, but how can I love a man and not trust him? How can I build a life with somebody and not expect him to be good/great? Because I can only expect him to reach and aim for higher than where he is now right - which should be pretty good in itself already if I chose to be with him......I cannot love at 90 percent! I must love at 130 percent but ''that will only get you hurt!!!'' friends lament!
Bleah - men, relationships - if you're looking for lovey dovey mushy stuff here on this website, you gotta wait a while. Because where I am now, no man can be trusted to put someone else first before them when the going gets tough - like a friend said, it's prioritisation (I believe it's true so I'm sharing it), he'd rather hurt you than himself.
Hopefully, one day I will stop being distrustful (just a teeny bit, mind you) of men out there and meet someone who can put these fears to rest. And I will read back on my blogs and think, I wrote with a tinge of disappointment, unhappiness, sore-ity (hahahaah) but I am glad to have been proven wrong.
By the way, about TV still - I love Lee Hom. Never noticed him before but a Chinese guy who is good looking, stylish and speaks wonderfully.....it's not just 'Celcom, the power is in your hands', but 'I am in your hands!'. Hahahahahhaahahaaa, don't be shocked! If you work with you, you will know I talk like this everyday at lunch!
Props out to Szu Ping whom I did not mention in my last blog for wishing me happy birthday - sorry darling! I saved the best for last!
I want a puppy! My friend gave me these 'out of this world' earrings for birthday, they are too precious! When I get my own notebook, I will start putting more pics up and then everyone can envy my gorgeous earrings and hair and self.....ahahahahahhaa..
By the way, travelling soon, can't wait! TIBET!!!!!!!!!!! It's going to be good!
